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I had one friend at the time who was desperately pleading for me to see he was manipulating me and that having an abortion would be the biggest regret. She encouraged me to keep the baby but I was too scared to be raising the baby without him.

In the end, he said to me “if you have this baby you will ruin my life”. I didn’t want him to hate the baby or I so he won. The abortion was finalised on April 15th 2016. What followed over the next 8 months was what led me to finding Sara’s Place.

Regret, depression, anger, bitterness, anxiety, mood swings and destructive behavior including suicidal tendencies. I barely left the house. I was angry every day. I cried all the time. I wanted to die. I kept telling myself it was the right decision but I knew I was experiencing regret and I felt so out of control of my life.

It was in December 2016 I found Sara’s Place and made an appointment. I wish I had known of them whilst I was pregnant. They have been the only ones who have validated my pregnancy and validate my anger, regret and sorrow. They have let me cry without feeling ashamed and have supported me with so much love and care.

In the 5 months I have been there I have made huge progress and have since come to realize the huge impact abortion truly has. I am so thankful for Sara’s Place and without them, I am not sure I would still be here to write this. I still think of my baby and I hope other women seek them before making the most final decision I did.

 

This is Part 2 of Jaya’s Story. Read Part 1 here.